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You're probably here for one of three reasons: you wanna read stories, you wanna read blog posts (usually about stories or video games) or you have literally no idea how you got here.
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The story section has a bunch of cool options for you to customize your viewing experience. I care about your eyes, and also your aesthetic preferences. You can find more of my rambling in the blog section, and you can learn way too much about me in the about section. Internet security hazard? Maybe. Stylish? Definitely.
Oh, and you can learn about my very-produced super projects under the books section. I'm still kinda figuring out what exactly I want my professional writing repetoire to look like, and it'll be a hot minute 'till it's populated... I'll make sure to update this description when I get that ball rolling.
"You don't get it. The internet used to feel like an adventure, now it feels like a city block." This was another of many defensive excuses I used to hear from my acquaintances who wanted excuses to feel bad about the world today.
I always told 'em they assumed too much. And in an effort to not be rude, I'd correct them without making a show about it. For example— while the internet may have changed, and some history has definitely been lost, its atmosphere is really what we make it. We needed to be the change we wanted to see. That's part of why I made this website.
This kind of advice usually fell on deaf ears. I knew exactly where they were coming from. They didn't wanna feel like anything was their choice. They were immature and repressed, always waiting on artists to do the heavy lifting for them, only to get entitled and rotten if the stuff they waited for didn't live up to their expectations. They took a kind of shameful pride in declaring themselves to be uncreative or unimaginative, and were eager to explain how they've never had a choice, the world made them this way, and so on. I could never get them to understand— these sorts of things were only the truth because they retroactively made it so.
My associates suffered from learned helplessness. Our schools cannot decipher or tackle this phenomena. It is not the objective of the government or of any business to review or think about this problem. It is solely our responsibility as individuals to understand the choices we have.
One of my goals in all of my writing, funny or thoughtful or both, is to comment on "learned helplessness" by emphasizing how our choices have weight. Both by setting an example through writing cool and strange characters who get a lot outta exploring things, but also by writing about the miserable people who've convinced themselves they "won" by escaping the need to think or confront their own feelings.
If the 2000s were defined by experimental CG music videos and post-90s pop music, the 2010s were defined by twenty year old dudes on YouTube playing video games and just killing time. It was an optimistic time. I'd know it quite well, because this twenty year period was my childhood, and remains my home.
For added context, I also spent a lot of time as a teenager on flash game websites, ROBLOX, and as an adolescent, Disney's ToonTown Online. These experiences, both social yet shallow, built the foundation beneath my understanding of people. It was very urban in spirit— and I might agree in that sense that the internet was always like "a city block." With so many people in one place, how could it ever be anything but?
As a child without standards, I stumbled into everything. It was not to escape boredom, but to embrace it. In the words of William Blake, "if the fool would persist in their folly, they would become wise." But I could never ask other people to fuck around and find out the way I did. I only did it because that's where I was in life. This process taught me about all the choices I have the power to make, and for a time I used this knowledge as social leverage. It's very easy to be confident about your own ability to learn things.
That's why I want to write stories that are high in contrast. Something that captures that spontaneous and experimental element for others, without people having to change themselves. Sad, happy, normal and weird, contrast doesn't write itself. So I'm also gonna be blogging about all kinds of stuff. There'll probably be a focus on the internet and writing.
Be on the look-out for my video game and fanfiction blog!
Alright ramblers, let's get ramblin'!
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